In all the ashrams, the money and the property is managed by other people and not by me; even my letters I don’t see. Once the accountant of one of the ashrams told me that he had been to a picture last night. I got angry with him. So what did he do? He did not tell me later, but he still used to go. I did not know where he got the money from. It was ashram money. I wanted to know what to do with him. I could not go on dismissing accounts.
So I phoned one cinema proprietor and asked him whenever a new picture came to send me two first class tickets. He was surprised but he knew there was something in my mind. Every time I used to give this disciple two tickets. That’s all, and the whole thing changed. He remained a good cashier and accountant.
Still I think much more change has to come in me. I wanted to accept the whole creation. I don’t want to know the two sides of creation. I just want to know it as one. I don’t care who cheats me. I don’t mind if one betrays me and I don’t care if one loves me. That state of mind should come and it will come.