Even now I get glimpses, clear glimpses of my guru. For me he is not dead because the death of the body is only a change. The death of the body does not indicate disintegration at any cost. And I get his glimpses very well, especially at times when I get fed up with the world, with the human elements. I think, ‘Oh! I should close the printing press, close the ashram, sell everything. Give all the money to some hospital or lunatic asylum or to some charitable trust and get out of this. Let these fellows go to dogs.’ I have thought like this many, many times, and exactly on that day I get a glimpse. In that glimpse he doesn’t tell me not to do it, but he gives me some other idea and inspires me to do it!
I think it was in 1975 when I had come back from Colombia, South America. I got fed up with a few swamis. I was about to pass a resolution in the committee to sell everything, give away the money, “I don’t want this ashram. If you want it, you run it.” The same night he came and said, “You must purchase that hillock opposite to the ashram.” That is the place of Ganga Darshan, where the new ashram is being built, the international research centre will be built. I never knew what it meant.
When I purchased the property, it was very costly, and the man who owned it didn’t want to sell it. He said, “Firstly, it is ancestral property, so I am not going to sell it. Secondly, it is a historical property, so I can’t even sell it.” The government objected, the archaeological department objected, papers went round and round. It was even discussed in the Indian parliament whether this sale should be accepted. Ultimately I purchased that land at a throw-away price!
There were still some more problems with the property.
One day again I thought, ‘If this is going to be the difficulty and I have to go to court for this, I don’t want this. Why should I go to court for property? Let them go to hell!’ So I told the swamis, “Look here. I’m not going to go to court. If the government departments say that the sale cannot be effected and buildings cannot be built and Bihar School of Yoga cannot have it, then I will throw it away.” Money means nothing to me.
The same night, again the glimpse – he gave me the full master plan of all the buildings. I have seen the buildings that are going to be built there. You can’t imagine it. I have seen the buildings, how they are going to be built, what type of rooms they will have. Swamiji came and said, “Here is your Ganga Darshan.” And later, things turned out exactly the same way.