Have you found the fullness of realization in your life through yoga?
A nice question! I have never searched for anything. From the time I was born I was full. Even the spiritual experience which I had came of its own. I have had many ordinary and spectacular experiences in my life, but all spontaneous! It was nothing to do with my wish and I did not ever search for that.
For me, my life was a perfect expression. From time to time I have tried to disturb my mind, but I think that even that disturbance is finished. Many times I have tried to make myself sick; many times I have tried to make myself unhappy and I have exposed myself to every extreme situation of life and I have experienced them all. I have found that they are part of fullness, not against fullness.
A human being is born with a desire; a desire is a manifestation of one’s own ego. It can be a desire for spiritual life. It can be a desire for pleasure, a desire to commit suicide, to become a singer, a king’s minister, an anarchist or atheist or maybe even the desire to do nothing. Everybody is born with a desire and whatever type of desire one may have, it is bonding. Whether you are tied by a golden chain or steel chain, it is all the same. A desire is a chain. A good desire is a golden chain, an evil desire is an iron chain and a wise man must avoid these chains.
How is it possible? Either you are born like that or you become aware that you have to do nothing, gain nothing and accomplish nothing. There is a great Nature which is already functioning for you and there is a great power which is taking care of you. Only then one can experience fullness and totality.
I am a medium. I have no desire of my own. I have no plans of my own. Do you understand what a medium is? It is like the flute. You can play any tune which you like; it has nothing to do with it. It is a medium. In the same way, I am a medium of somebody and he is working through me. He is thinking through me and speaking through me. I do not have to do anything. I realized about this medium around 1964. Before that I knew it intellectually and I thought about it, but in 1964 I experienced it. There is a difference between knowledge and experience. After that experience I was convinced that I am not the doer. I am the medium.
1983, Spain